Hello 🙃 I'm back after some time off I thought I'd be honest it's been very stressful existing on this app this year. around new years I made a post about health and well-being and 2019 goals and resolutions and it went a little viral and I gained a couple hundred followers but it was kind of intense because I'm not the kind of person who finds it easy to talk about my mental health privately let alone publicly. I've struggled with post traumatic stress depression anxiety disassociation since before I was even a teenager. Now I'm an adult with a bpd diagnosis and issues on picking up on social cues who takes a boatload of meds and sees a therapist regularly. What not many people know is that just before the end of 2018 I finished up a five week stay in a psych ward and that's kind of where that realistic health goals ideology came from. But suddenly I had a bunch of people following me based on this concept of wellness that I did not feel I lived up to - hello old friend imposter syndrome. 2018 hasn't been easy and I'm definitely not “well’ but I've improved a lot in a lot of different ways based on a lot of different things that definitely can't be summed up in a Instagram post. But I wanted to shot out yoga and meditation for bringing me a few minutes of peace every day in between the melt downs. Anyways hey yall I'm back, can't guarantee I won't drop off the face of Instagram again because of immense pressure that literally nobody has put on me but myself. I'm sorry I'm not the wellness guide you were looking for. But also not sorry because this year I've found a lot of happiness being my blunt slutty authentic emo cunty sardonic self. Heres to my ongoing public performance titled “who does this bitch think she is?” Alexa play the saddle club theme song.
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I was busy yesterday so a Happy belated 25th Anniversary to the movie with the best soundtrack of all time. Never have I wanted to walk through a pool hall in slow motion while The Hurricane plays as much as after first seeing this movie.