Super cool cloud / mist / fog and general sunrise pictures I took this morning. There was this really cool 'cloud' thing over a portion of the town my college is near and this was the only shot I could get because then I realized what was going on and had already passed the big stuff. Still cool! #cool#skyscape#clouds#warmcolors#pictureofthesky#sunrise
Three years without my brother. I used to go to bed and wake up wondering how old I would live to be. How many years I would live with this grief. How many years we wouldn’t have together. If I lived to 88 (now 91) like my uncle it would be at least 60 more years. It felt overwhelming.
I find myself counting and tracking time less and less. I’ve learned that letting go of my brother’s death does not mean I am letting go and forgetting him. Rather it’s letting go of the pain and tragedy so I can keep living. It’s a conscious choice and not always an easy one. If we keep retelling and reliving the same story though, we don’t give ourselves room to write new ones. This story will always be part of me, one that I’m willing to share with those in need or to help others understand, but I have other stories to share. Ones that equally deserve to be shared.
If you’re grieving, my heart is with you. We will always grieve those we’ve lost. And while the world can be scary and painful, it’s also full of some really f*cking beautiful and good places, things, and people. Don’t be afraid to move through this story and write a new one.
Please take a minute to check your smoke detectors and its batteries today.
Brother, I promise to always meet you where the sun rises. You’re my favorite. Be good.
you have grown
since July of last year
through an ocean
of your fears
learning to believe
over and over again
no matter the darkness
light is still pouring in" ✨ -@morganharpernichols